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Easter 2025 – John 20:1-20
Welcome and Prayer: Jim Calhoun
Come Lord and join us here today
We take this world to be a certain way
Matters seem settled or maybe just set
Death and taxes and all that
People don’t change, never will
Life is hard and then you die.
And then you came
And you lived among us
And taught us about your path
Your ways
Your kingdom
And you loved people
And you healed people
And you set people free
We killed you for this Lord
But then you overcame death
And then you came to us
Each of us
And now that overcoming is ours as well
We can change
We can become great lovers
Of all the people
We can help ease the suffering of others
We can be a part of the healing of this world
We can be a part of setting people free
Life is no longer fixed
No longer dreary or a drudgery
Even in the midst of suffering or pain
We now live our lives enveloped in your overcoming
And we are overcoming too
Unbelievable
Remarkable
Amazing
Astonishing
Thank you Lord for this life
This life
Hallelujah
Amen
Today’s Talk: chuck smith, jr.
John 20:1-20
INTRO: Every Easter, until COVID, my dad would host a Sunrise Service
(First at the Pacific Amphitheater and later the Verizon Amphitheater)
And most every year he would tell the same story; this one about Mary Magdalene
- you might expect people to say, “Oh no, not this story again,”
~ but instead it was, “Oh! This is one of my favorite sermons”
~ about forty years ago, a Sunrise Service was held at San Clemente High School
I went because I heard Eddie Piorek was going to speak
He also told the story of Mary Magdalene - I’m don’t intend to recover or carry on a tradition today
~ but last week—Palm Sunday—we read the story about another Mary,
the one who poured perfume on Jesus’ feet
~ it felt right to spend a moment with the Mary in today’s story,
who lost Jesus and then found found him
John, in fact, highlights three Marys who appear in connection with Jesus’ death
Mary, the sister of Martha and Lazarus, who prepared Jesus for his burial (Jn. 12:7)
Mary Magdalene, who stood by the cross and later came to the tomb,
And Mary the mother of Jesus
- but we discover something odd regarding Jesus’ mother
~ although there were three Marys near the cross, John names only two of them
“standing by the cross of Jesus were his mother and his mother’s sister, Mary the wife of Clopas, and Mary Magdalene” (Jn. 19:25)
he does not mention Mary’s (the Lord’s mother) name
~ early in John’s Gospel, John tells the story of Jesus’ first miracle — at a wedding
again there John doesn’t use her name, but says,
“and the mother of Jesus was there” (Jn. 2:2) - it’s not as if this were of great importance,
~ but John never mentions his own name either,
even when talking about himself in the third person
~ here is how he refers to himself when Jesus spoke to him from the cross,
“When Jesus saw his mother and the disciple whom he loved standing nearby . . .” (Jn. 19:26) - tradition tells us that later on Mary and John were very close
~ that they even traveled and ministered together
~ is it possible that they agreed that knowing John was writing the story of Jesus,
neither one of them wanted attention drawn to themselves?
so John did not identify either himself or Mary by name?
If that were so, it’d be a great example for celebrity pastors and church leaders today
Anyway, three Marys are highlighted, and each one had given attention to Jesus’ body
- one of them touched his heart by washing his feet
- one of the touched his heart by desperately searching for his corpse
- and, of course, one of them had swaddled his infant body and placed him in a manger
~ three Marys, and at the end,
Jesus was watching out for each of them, and caring for them
Had the events reported in the Bible not taken place in sexist cultures,
We would have more stories of heroic women
- most of those we meet in scripture are strong, brave, wise, resourceful, and devout
~ there’s a character type in the Bible, in which an intelligent and astute wife,
is married to a dense and clueless husband
~ the scenes with Manoah and his wife, Abigail and Naval, Ahab and Jezebel
are comical—at least that’s how I read them - so, along comes Mary — and right away, she’s special
~ though the other gospels tell us that several women came to the tomb together
John singles out Mary to give us a look inside her heart
~ she believed she owed Jesus a huge debt of love
she owed him her life,
which was haunted by several demons until she encountered the Lord - I want us to hold this in our minds and imaginations while re-living this story
From a literary point of view, John expertly takes us to the tomb in the garden
Through the eyes of the characters, we see everything
- Mary saw the stone had been moved from the entrance
John stooped to look into the tomb
When Peter rushed into the tomb, he saw the burial cloths
Mary eventually looked into the tomb—and saw angels - and so on it goes
Subtle attention is given to the postures and positions of people and objects
- both John and Mary, “stooping” to look inside the tomb
The placement and disposition of the linen cloths lying there
We Mary where she “stood” weeping, and then saw Jesus standing there facing her
The angels, however we’re sitting in the tomb - all of this visualization carries us there, that early morning
Action is also highlighted
- it begins with Mary coming to the tomb
The stone over the door had been moved
She ran and found Peter and John,
And they went, and they ran
So the action goes, all the way to the moment Mary was clinging to Jesus
(at least, trying to cling to him)
Jesus told her she could not hang onto him, because he had to ascend to his Father
The importance of all this information—all the details and embellishments—
- is the way the richness of these descriptions work on our imaginations
~ we’re able to be there, to see what they see and feel what they felt
~ at first, they didn’t know what to think
and neither do we — at least, not at first, and not all the time
we venture through periods of unanswered questions,
and serious deep, dark doubts - allowing ourselves to feel the Scriptures is one way of getting them into our hearts
~ and getting them into our hearts is as important and maybe even more so
than getting them into our heads
~ desire and determination, passion and motivation, love and empathy
live in the tissues of our hearts
I speak only for myself when I say rational “proofs” of Jesus’ resurrection leave me cold
- if we’re honest, we must admit they work only for people who already believe
- living this many centuries since his resurrection took place,
~ it is not something that needs to be proven as much as believed
now it’s about putting our faith in God and his Son
now it’s learning to trust him, when there’s no rational reason why we should
~ the reasons we have for trusting God reasons are personal more than rational
I’ve heard preachers make statements like,
“We do not judge the Bible by science; we judge science by the Bible!”
- I would agree with the first half of that statement
~ we do not judge the Bible by science,
we judge our interpretations of the Bible by science
(although science is not infallible) - the Scriptures are inspired, our interpretations are not
~ in fact, we have to have some flexibility in holding onto our interpretations
~ but let’s get back to Mary
Mary headed to the tomb before sunrise
Obviously, she was eager to get to the task at hand
- now this whole first half of the chapter is about the body of Jesus,
~ but the word, body, occurs only one time in the chapter (only five times in John)
~ Mary can’t bring herself to think of Jesus as a lifeless body—a corpse
she consistently refers to him as “the Lord” or “my Lord” - the instant she saw the stone was no longer blocking the entrance
she turned and ran
~ she didn’t know why she was running, but assumed grave robbers had been there
~ breathless, she tells Peter and John,
“They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him”
she cannot identify those who committed the terrible crime
she can only say, “they”—everyone is a suspect
Of course, she could not have
guessed that the Heavenly Father had awakened and raised his Son
After Peter and John left the garden, Mary stayed there, crying
Where would she go?
- ever since she met him, her whole life was Jesus
~ even tending to his body would have given her existence a meaning
as long as our crises, our emergencies require action,
as long as there are things that must be done—or can be done—
we hold off crying
~ but when the dust settles, when there are no more distractions,
when we’re forced to give up hope, that is when we cry
Bible teachers have offered explanations for why Mary didn’t recognize Jesus at first
- and that, even though John says she turned and looked at him
~ but not recognizing Jesus is a recurring theme in the post-resurrection stories
Luke give us two clear examples
for instance, with the two disciples on the road to Emmaus
and there it seems Jesus had a little fun with them - Jesus knew Mary would not recognize him at first
~ and the way I read this, is he started to have a little fun with her too, - feigning ignorance, as he did with the two disciples
- so he asked her,
- “Woman, why are you weeping?”
- ~ but it’s as though, when he sees how devastated she is,
- when he hears the anguish in her strained voice,
- he drops the charade, and simply says her name
- CONCLUSION: Everything about this encounter reveals Mary’s desperate love for
- Jesus
- And why did she have this great depth of love for him?
- Because he was good to her
- Because he was good!
- Because he showed her kindness
- Because she knew she mattered to him
- Why did the other Mary pour perfume on Jesus’ feet?
- Why did this Mary cling to him—or at least try to cling to him?
- Perhaps these were the only ways they knew to express their love
- And Jesus accepted and received their love
- This is why I’ve wanted to demonstrate how John tries to pull us into the story
- He wants us to have an experience of the love of Jesus
- And to love him in return
- God gets so much more from us when he has our love,
- than when we are merely doing our duty
- So, go, enjoy the remainder of this Easter Day
- And for heaven’s sake, HAVE AN EXPERIENCE!
Palm Sunday – April 13, 2025
Welcome and prayer: Jim Calhoun
Come, Lord, and join us here today
We are full of gratitude that
You sought us
Found us
Brought us close
Made us new
And loved us like Your children
We have been so fortunate to live our days with You
To know Your presence
Your loving care
To hear Your voice
Even when quiet and gentle
And this love You have poured into us,
Is the love we want to pour into others
And it makes our hearts glad
Though sometimes—often times—
Life, people (ourselves included),
Are messy
Needy
Wounded or broken
and life is hard
Loving is hard
Despite our best intentions
Our best efforts
Our determined sacrifices
And things fall apart
Come, Lord, and bind up the disappointed
Tend their wounds
Chase away their self-doubt
Their self-loathing
And any inclination to condemn themselves
Remind us that You are sovereign
You are making all things new
All people whole
That a dreary, ugly episode for us
Can nevertheless be transformed
That more is happening than we know
That loving others is still our calling
Even when things don’t work out as we hoped
Grant us the grace to continue to love
Just as You have loved us
Morning talk: chuck smith, jr.
“Six days before the Passover, Jesus therefore came to Bethany, where Lazarus was, whom Jesus had raised from the dead. So they gave a dinner for him there. Martha served, and Lazarus was one of those reclining with him at table. Mary therefore took a pound of expensive oil made from [an exquisite plant], and anointed the feet of Jesus and wiped his feet with her hair. The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume. But Judas Iscariot, one of the disciples (he who was about to betray him), said, ‘Why was this ointment not sold for three hundred denarii and given to the poor?’ He said this, not because he cared about the poor, but because he was a thief, and having charge of the moneybag he used to help himself to what was put into it. Jesus said, ‘Leave her alone, so she may keep it for the day of my burial. For the poor you always have with you, but you do not always have me.’” John 12:1-8
INTRO: I know this is Palm Sunday and I read the wrong story
However, this is like an introduction to this big occasion, because
Jesus came to stay in the home of his friends the day before his grand entrance
– by the time he reached Bethany, his ministry was winding down
~ when we read to the end of this chapter,
We come to the end of Jesus’ service to the crowds (in John’s Gospel)
~ they will hear nothing more from him, personally
– in fact, this important detail of limited opportunity is highlighted in this chapter
I wonder how long Mary had been wanting to bless Jesus in this way
– she not have been sure she’d ever have the opportunity
~ but here he was, right there in her home
if she chickened out now, would she have a second chance?
~ turns out, she wouldn’t! it was now or never
– later on, Jesus will talk about missed opportunities — vv. 35-36 & 46
~ when he said, “While you have the light,” that space of time was narrow
Mary must have felt some measure of excitement
– we bring gifts to people because we love them
~ we want to bring joy to their hearts
~ but we also worry— What if they don’t like my gift
– did Mary nervously try to slip into the room without being noticed?
~ did she fumble with the stopper in the small clay jar?
or feel embarrassment in front of the disciples?
The times we visited orphans in Russia,
A few of the children gave us gifts
– something small and worn out that they had held onto for a long time,
~ because they had nothing else
had the trinket had been anything of much value,
the older, bigger orphans would have already taken it from them
~ the child bringing the gift would approach one of us with a big smile,
holding tightly to the little treasure in their hands
One boy, maybe seven years old—
(it was difficult to guess their ages,
because on their slender diets they did not develop normally)
~ with bright eyes, handed me an old fountain pen —out of ink
maybe thrown away or handed to him by another visitor,
because it was worthless — but not to him
~ he had hidden it and hung onto to until then, when he gave it to me
I’ve kept it
The first time I was in Russia, at one of the most impoverished orphanages,
– a small girl took my hand as we walked from a river back to their dormitory
~ and she didn’t let go of my hand until dinner,
then she grabbed it again until it was time for her to turn in
~ ever since then, she has held onto my heart
she wrote a poem and gave it to me just before we drove away
I’ve held onto that too — in fact, I have it right here . . .
written in Russian and translated by one of our interpreters
If you sometimes skim through biblical passage, don’t overlook this line:
“The house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.”
– I’m certain that John is suggesting something, like a hidden meaning
– entering a person’s home, we often notice the fragrance of it
~ in some cases, the aroma was prepared for our visit
~ others times the residents scented their home for their own enjoyment
whenever we went to my grandmother’s home,
it always smelled like chocolate chip cookies
Some people bring a pleasant fragrance into every encounter,
– but it has nothing to do with our olfactory sense other than by analogy
“thanks be to God,” St. Paul wrote, “who . . . through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere. For we are the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and among those who are perishing” (2 Cor. 2:15-16)
How was it, that Mary’s devotion to Jesus became a problem for someone else?
– nevertheless, this happens all the time
~ a Judas who never felt an overwhelming attraction to Jesus,
who has no idea what it means to be in love with Jesus,
who joins the followers of the Lord, not for the Lord but their own benefit,
~ sees another follower offer themselves completely to God,
worship him without restraint,
give him the most lavish offering of praise and worship,
with their entire spirit, mind and body,
and scoff, or criticize, or find fault with them
– King David’s wife saw him worshipping God
as the Ark of the Covenant was carried into the city,
“leaping and dancing before the LORD, and she despised him in her heart” (2 Sam. 6:16)
~ so he arrived home to her bitter insults and insinuations,
but in his own defense, he said, “It was before the LORD”
~ he justified his complete abandon
as an extravagant expression of his adoration of God
the Lord was his audience — she was just a spectator
These harsh critics are skillful in the way they can conceal their contempt
beneath a veneer of piety and sensible decorum
“Why didn’t she sell that expensive perfume and give the proceeds to the poor?”
– that kind of logic can infect the minds of others,
who may be truly caring followers of Jesus
~ John is the only writer who pins this this complaint on Judas
Matthew implicates all the disciples
and Mark said there were “others” who shared those sentiments
~ and of course — it sounded good — benevolent — generous
“Leave her alone!” Jesus said — he was immediately her hero, her protector
“Back off Judas! You have enough of your own problems,
and you cannot blame them on her.
If you really care about the poor, you always have them around you,
but you do not always have me.”
– there it is again — that limitation —
the time will run out, the opportunity will pass
~ the day will end and then night will descend
NOW we can celebrate Palm Sunday
“The next day the large crowd that had come to the feast heard that Jesus was coming for the feast heard that Jesus was coming to Jerusalem. So they took branches of palm trees and went out to meet him, crying out, ‘Hosanna! Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord, even the King of Israel!’ And Jesus found a young donkey and sat on it, just as it is written,
‘Fear not, daughter of Zion;
behold, your king is coming,
sitting on a donkey’s colt!’” (Jn. 12:12-15)
Wait! Was that it? John gives the most condensed account of this event
– Matthew tells us how the entire city of Jerusalem was stirred up,
and even some time later children were still singing in the temple,
“Hosanna to the Son of David”
~ Mark is more subdued, but not as much as John
However it is Luke who tells us, that if the crowd had been silent,
“the very stones would cry out”
~ perhaps John felt his readers were already aware of those other accounts
We have sometimes heard
– that the crowd who welcomed Jesus with praises on Palm Sunday
~ were shouting “Crucify him” on Good Friday
but according to what John says in verse 12,
the crowd on Palm Sunday were out-of-towners
the locals had to ask “Who is this?” (Matthew 21:10)
~ it was the locals—and especially the religious leaders protecting their interests,
who clamored for Jesus’ execution
– John does add something else no other Gospel reported
“Now among those who went up to worship at the feast were some Greeks. So these came to Philip who was from Bethsaida in Galilee, and asked him, ‘Sir, we wish to see Jesus.’ Philip went and told Andrew; Andrew and Philip went and told Jesus” (Jn. 12:20-22)
~ at the beginning of this Gospel, one of the first disciples to follow Jesus was Andrew
he went and found his brother Peter and brought him to Jesus
~ another first disciple was Philip,
who went and found Nathanael and brought him to Jesus
~ the first two disciples were already bringing others to Jesus
now, at the end of Jesus’ ministry, they’re still bringing people to Jesus
only this time there is a radical difference: these men are not Jewish
– neither were the Samaritans Jewish,
~ but they shared a distant identity with Israel and belief in their same God
~ the Greeks were from a different part of the world and a very different culture
it looks like a new stage in the spread of the Lord’s work
so it seems odd to me, but John says nothing more about them
What happens next: Jesus just starts talking
And it’s as if he is saying whatever pops into his mind
– he announces that his hour has finally arrived,
~ but he isn’t specific regarding what that means
he uses a figure of speech, that at least WE can understand refers to his death
then he says those who follow him must walk the same path
~ before that can settle in, Jesus reveals something very personal
“Now is my soul troubled. And what shall I say? ‘Father, save me fro this hour? But for this purpose have I come to this hour” (v. 27)
– I feel the tension in his voice,
torn between his mission and his natural inclination to avoid suffering and death
~ he didn’t judge himself for having these feelings
~ he faced them, acknowledged them, and transcended them
For the third time in John’s Gospel, Jesus talks about being “lifted up from the earth”
– Jesus was not going to be doing the lifting
~ this was going to happen to him
~ he was going to be doing something else — a drawing
“And I, when I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all people to myself” (v. 22)
– in this chapter we’ve seen how people were drawn to Jesus
~ Mary, drawn by love
~ people drawn to her home drawn by the miracle of Lazarus raised from death
~ the crowd as he descended the Mount of Olives,
drawn by all the wonderful works they had seen
~ and then the Greeks, who were drawn to him by who-knows-what or why
– but when he’s lifted up, all people everywhere are drawn to him.
There’s another meaning to being “lifted up,”
– which means exalted, honored, raised to prominence or positive recognition
~ humans lifted Jesus up on a cross—his Father lifted up to glory
CONCLUSION: Before we lay down our palm branches,
Quiet our kids, collect our things, and leave the parade down the Mount of Olives
– there is something Jesus said I want to take with me
“If anyone serves me, they must follow me; and where I am, my servant will be also” (c. 26)
When I pray, I frequently ask Jesus to be with me
His presence holds me together, when everything else is falling apart
But the verse reminds me, that when I’m praying, “O Lord, be with me,”
Jesus is telling me, “Follow Me, and you will be with Me”
Palm Sunday 04/02/2023
Welcome and Prayer: Nancy Lopez
Good morning! Welcome to the RefleXion Community. The Lord is with you.
The humble barnacle, those critters that attach themselves to the bottom of boats and dock pilings, I don’t know anyone who has an affinity for them. When they are born, they float for a very short time and then attach to the first things they find, and that is pretty much where they live out the rest of their lives. They rely on the flow of the water passing by them, which they comb for food. They have a hard shell, and if they sense a potential threat, they withdraw into those shells. Wait….are we talking about barnacles or humans?! We’re all pretty good at attaching to places we feel safe, retreating into our shells, and settling for what comes to us for our spiritual food.
But, what if one little barnacle had the desire to let go of what he’d always known and float down the flow of the river? The ones he had been with would probably all yell, “No! Don’t go! Danger, Danger!” But then he did let go and flowed freely again. Then, what if the little barnacles who lived downstream saw him and they, too, felt invited to detach from what they’d always known, where they’d felt safe, and to follow the flow? What if they said to each other, “I didn’t know we could do that!”
Today, we celebrate Palm Sunday. Jesus was rejected by many, because He represented a new way to God and a new way to live. Some yelled “No, Danger!” And some felt invited to follow this man. There was a large crowd around Jesus on Palm Sunday, people who threw down their cloaks and their old religion and chose to follow Jesus. On this Palm Sunday, which people will we be? Are we able to imagine that God will come to us in fresh ways? Do we believe we can hear and trust His invitations? Are we willing to be ones who can follow the New Way, the new Way of the Spirit?
Shall we pray? Father God, Jesus the Christ, Holy Spirit given to us, reveal to us Your Presence. Thank you for opening for us the new and living way. We will follow You. Thank You for those who have led us and encouraged us. Thank You for Your Holy Spirit Who is forming us. We welcome You. Amen
In our quiet time this morning, I wonder if we can step in to the Palm Sunday scene. Let’s begin by taking a few deep breaths and then settling into a natural breathing and a comfortable yet alert posture. Place yourself in the Palm Sunday scene as you imagine that it was. You are arriving with others to the growing crowd. It’s quieter than you imagined it would be. Each one is attentive and waiting for Jesus to arrive. Each one as the Spirit moves them is throwing down their cloak and laying down palm branches of welcome. As we are waiting for His arrival, our desire to see Him intensifies, the passion of the crowd moves us into a collective anticipation. We are here together, yet you are aware of your heart alone. Let this be your moment to experience the waiting for and the coming of Jesus.
Morning Talk: Jim Calhoun
The beginning of the Passion
Let’s start with Jesus in Jerusalem. (John 10) The Feast of Dedication (Hanukkah)
There is a confrontation.
“If you are the Christ tell us plainly”
“I told you but you did not believe.“
“For which of my good works will you stone me?”
Jesus slips away and goes into hiding to Bethany across the Jordan some twenty-four miles away
While he is in hiding Jesus gets word that his friend Lazarus is very sick.
He delays his departure by a couple of days and we don’t know why.
Eventually he travels to Bethany about twenty-two miles from where had be staying.
He is met by first one sister and then the other and is taken to Lazarus’ tomb.
Though it seems plain that Jesus knew he would resuscitate his friend he was deeply emotional at his tomb.
Many people were there and watched as Lazarus walked from the tomb.
Unlike before Jesus couldn’t put a lid on this. Too many had seen it.
This set off a whole chain of events that led to Jesus’ death. How can this be? The raising of someone from the dead seems to be an unalloyed good.
But the opinions of what they had seen were widely and wildly different. Some believed that Jesus was the Christ and some thought he used the power of the devil.
Some praised God and some reported his actions to the authorities.
The authorities in this case were the high priests, keepers of the temple. They were the Sadducees and the Pharisees and they had quite the conversation about Jesus.
He’s what they said: If we let him go on like this, everyone will believe in him, and the Romans will come and take away both our place and our nation.
Judea was occupied territory and had been for a long time. People responded to this differently.
The Sadducees were most closely tied with Rome. They were the keepers of the temple. The head of the temple , the chief priest was appointed by Rome. The Sadducees had no expectation or place in their thinking for a messiah.
The Pharisees – they thought the law was primary in matters not the temple. They put up with Rome wishing to be more or less left alone.
So the Sadducees and Pharisees worried that Jesus, if he were the Messiah, would disrupt the deal with Rome. They would lose their jobs, status, lives and the nation would be sacked.
I’ll say that this was a reasonable thought. When Herod the Great took power in 37 BC he slaughtered forty-five members of the Sanhedrin (the high Jewish council). They knew from recent history how it could go. And they knew Rome was tougher than Herod. In fact in a few years, Rome would tear down Jerusalem stone by stone in response to a revolt against them.
The high priest says this: it is better for you that one man should die for the people, not that the whole nation should perish.
This is a classic political assessment. Unknowingly it is also a prophecy.
Jesus did die for the people and for the nation. In fact, for us all.
By now Jesus knew it was no longer safe to be seen in public so he went into hiding again. This time he went to Ephraim in the wilderness, about sixteen miles north of Jerusalem.
Jesus returns to Bethany six days before the Passover. He stays with Lazarus and his sisters. That night Mary anoints his feet with perfume prefiguring his death. The next morning they head into Jerusalem.
Jesus mounts a young donkey. It is a statement all will understand. He comes in peace. The prince of peace. The anointed one. The messiah who will bring peace to the world.
The people (from Galilee) recognize him. He was the one who raised Lazarus from the dead. They cheered him. They laid down their cloaks and palm branches in homage.
It is hard to imagine how long this lasted. A few minutes? An hour or two? I don’t know. Nothing I know clearly says. But it doesn’t last long. Soon Jesus is talking about his impending death.
This moment of triumph was the beginning of the end. It begins the passion week. As true and correct as it is that Jesus was to be celebrated as the promised messiah, it didn’t last long.
We don’t live in a triumphant age.
We aren’t there yet.
While we experience some of the redemption promised in Christ we don’t have it all.
We live in the era of now but not yet.
We want to be triumphant. We want the struggles and battles to be over. We want the suffering and heartbreaks to be done. We want to be without worry. But not yet. We are still in the thick of it.
Some people act like we live in the age of triumph. That we should have all we desire.
It isn’t so.
Every person who is healed and recovers will one day succumb. Every person we know will die. That is how it will be in this era. We live in the time of now but not yet.
Now we get Christ and one day every tear will be dried
Some people hold that prosperity is every Christian’s due.
It isn’t so.
Not in this era.
Think of our poor brothers and sisters, faithful in Christ. They don’t get private jets. They probably don’t have basic medical care.
And brothers and sisters closer to home, faithful in Christ do they get to name anything in their imagination and demand God give it?
Not in this era.
We live in the time of now but not yet.
Now we get Christ and one day all of God’s riches will be ours and ours to share.
Some people hold that we as Christians should be first among all people. That others should comply with us, bend their will to ours, grant us deference and privilege.
It isn’t so.
Our place is known by how we serve others not by how they serve us. This era is when we love our neighbors as ourselves, and we lay down our lives for others because there is still a need for that.
Now we get Christ and one day the whole world will know peace, shalom.
Savor the good gifts of God when they come The happy gifts
A fortuitous circumstance
A rescue from a bad situation
A problem resolved unexpectedly
A great parking space.
Whatever it is savor it
Celebrate it
Keep a journal
Revisit these stories
Hold those moments close.
You may need that encouragement
Learn to recognize the more difficult gifts of god.
Loneliness
Suffering
Sacrifice
These are the deeper gifts in this day. They cause us to turn to God
To depend upon God
To reorient toward God
Thank God for these in your life.
You can write these down too.
Cherish them.
Knowing God is with you in them just the same as the happy gifts.
These are the blessings of this age. Matthew 5
Listen carefully for your blessing. Thank God for what you hear. Listen carefully for the ones you yearn for and then give yourself to them.
This is the true spirituality of this era. Of the now but not yet:
Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.
Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.
Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Mediations in Mark Chapter 3 – 03/12/2023
Welcome and Prayer: Nancy Lopez
Good morning and welcome to our RefleXion Community! The Lord is with you.
As Chuck began our series in the book of Mark, I noticed—and maybe you did too– that the word “wilderness” was mentioned four times in the first 13 verses. Before Jesus invited anyone to “Follow Me,” there was the wilderness. John the Baptizer was a fulfillment of Isaiah’s prophecy that there would be a voice calling from the wilderness, and then he was baptizing in the wilderness. Jesus was driven into the wilderness (by the Holy Spirit, no less) and was in the wilderness for 40 days. Since we want to “follow Jesus,” just as He was led by the Spirit, so must we be led. And, if we’re led into the wilderness…well, what is the wilderness? The Greek word eremos is translated:
As a type of place: solitary, lonely, desolate, uninhabited, and an uncultivated region, though fit for pasture. As the state of a person: deserted by others, deprived of their aid and protection, especially of friends, acquaintances, kindred.
I imagine that we all have experienced some aspect of the desert (desert-edness) or soul-drought. Yet the desert is never seen in scripture as an empty region. It is a space provided for shaking off all forms of disordered desires and attachments and carrying forward only what is necessary. It’s a place of renewal, of returning to essence.
Jesus’ temptations, it seems to me, were focused on his identity: “If you are the Son of God…” came the temptation. I wonder if the primary temptation we all face is to doubt our identify: that we are children of God, with a divine identity and a unique calling.
There are some great quotes by one of the 4th century Desert Mothers (those who chose to go to the Desert, by the way). Her name was Amma Syncletica of Alexandria. She wrote, “If you find yourself in a monastery do not go to another place, for that will harm you a great deal. Just as the bird who abandons the eggs she was sitting on prevents them from hatching, so is the [one] who grows cold and their faith dies, when they go from place to place.” Amma Syncletica is counseling us not to run from ourselves and is encouraging us to stay faithfully with whatever new life is being hatched in us.
At least, these have been God’s word to me of late: “Don’t try to control; don’t try to escape.” We are always in the nest of God (our Provider, Comforter, Nourisher). Yet in the wilderness? In the wild? Yes, we’re still in His nest, though perhaps without the feather bedding. Maybe then we can call our wilderness the “Wilder-Nest.” We’re still in His Nest.
Shall we pray:
Thank You, Lord, for Your covenant of love. We are grateful for the guidance of the Holy Spirit. We surrender to Your love however it may look. Keep us safe from wild beasts and pity parties. Encourage us by empowering grace. Feed us with your good word this morning, for our sake and for the sake of the Kingdom. Amen
Morning Talk: chuck smith, jr.
Again he entered the synagogue, and a man was there with a withered hand. And they watched Jesus, to see whether he would heal him on the Sabbath, so that they might accuse him. And he said to the man, “Come here.” And he said to them, “Is it lawful on the Sabbath to do good or to do harm, to save life or to kill?” But they were silent. And he looked around at them with anger, grieved at their hardness of heart, and said to the man, “Stretch forth you hand.” He stretched it out, and his hand was restored. The Pharisees went out and immediately held counsel with the Herodians against him, how to destroy him. Mark 3:1-6
Intro: In our current excursion through the Gospel of Mark, I am more of a tour guide than a teacher
These talks come from my personal meditations,
– and I’m inviting you to let me show you what I have seen
• to appreciate the ground we’ll cover today, I’m going to share another personal observation,
◦ because it is relevant to this chapter
– I see two Christian paths that run parallel to each other
• one path is relational – I see it as the true path
◦ on this path, trust in God is real and refreshed daily
◦ the primary characteristic of this path is love for God and love for others
• the other path is religious – it looks right, but it’s missing something
having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people (2 Tim. 31-5)
◦ on this path, trust is placed in a person’s beliefs and specific habits
◦ being “right” doctrinally is confused with being “righteous”
It seems to me, in Jesus’ day, Israel’s religion looked right
– but the devotion of believers like the Pharisees,
• was given to the forms of religion, not to the heart or spirit of the Law
◦ God sent poets and prophets to bring Israel to himself
◦ but having discovered that the forms could be controlled by people, they rejected the prophets
• Israel chose to live at a distance from God, but close to the Law and their interpretations of it
◦ in that way they could justify being greedy and unmerciful,
◦ yet, at the same time, believe they were godlier than other less religious people
– remember last week? Jesus said,
no one puts new wine into old wineskins. If he does, the wine will burst the skins—and the wine is destroyed, and so are the skins (Mk. 2:22)
• his life and ministry were incompatible with the established religion
• we witness that incompatibility in this chapter
My meditation in the synagogue
The synagogue was the local headquarters of the religious institution
– I imagined myself there when Jesus entered
A man was there, who did not want to draw attention to himself, yet he could not go unnoticed. His disability made him a perfect candidate for the compassion and power of Jesus.
The Lord’s presence did not go unnoticed either. He was being watched, scrutinized. He had critics who wanted to confirm their suspicions. Would he honor the Sabbath according to their tradition? Or would he do what he had been doing everywhere else, all the time?
The Pharisees were not interested in learning whether he was sent by God. They weren’t even interested in his miracles, his compassion, or changed lives. They believed in their beliefs. Did he? Did Jesus believe in and share those beliefs? That is what they were waiting to discover.
Jesus tells the disabled man, who doesn’t want attention, to come forward. I feel nervous for him. I see him holding his arms behind his back, looking down at the ground in front of his feet. Then Jesus asks the others sitting in the Synagogue whether the Sabbath law permitted a person to do good or harm, to save life or kill. I imagine the Lord making make eye-contact with each person sitting there.
No one answered. I notice Jesus’ emotional response: anger and grief.
Why did they clam up? Why were they unwilling to answer such an easy question? I’m guessing that they did not want to yield anything to Jesus. No wonder this hardness of heart angered and grieved him. For centuries God faced the same stubbornness with his people, this same unwillingness to cooperate with him. Jesus’ sadness came not only from they way they hardened their hearts to him, but to the broken man as well.
A child complains to a parent about other kids, “They won’t play with me!” No one in the synagogue was willing to play along with Jesus. No one was interested in doing good or saving a life on the Sabbath. Later, Jesus would say,
“But to what shall I compare this generation? It is like children sitting in the marketplaces and calling to their playmates,
‘We played the flute for you,
and you did not dance;
we sang a dirge,
and you did not mourn.’
For John came neither eating nor drinking, and they say, ‘He has a demon.’ The Son of Man came eating and drinking, and they say, ‘Look at him! A glutton and a drunkard, a friend of tax collectors and sinners!” (Mt. 11:16-19)
Today, if Jesus asks me, “Can you come out and play?” I’m going with him.
People on the parallel path of Christianity tend to have hard hearts
– some have shorter or longer lists of who is going to hell
• but long or short, it doesn’t bother them to pronounce sentence
◦ try to get them to re-examine their beliefs and they resist
• our theology and doctrine about God is not God
◦ those are rational concepts, and God is not a concept
◦ it is not only humility, but also compassion, to allow God to correct our beliefs
My meditation by the “sea”
Jesus withdrew with his disciples to the sea, and a great crowd followed him (Mk. 3:7)
“Jesus withdrew” – he did not continue to engage his critics
– there was no way he could win them over
• however, he could do good for the crowds who followed him
– sometimes the best course of action is to withdraw
• the morning that I meditated on this passage, my prayer was:
“Lord Jesus, please share Your wisdom with me, so that I may choose the best course of action. In every instance of conflict, slander, opposition, or trouble, give me clear thoughts and guide my actions. Remind me that it is not cowardice to withdraw. That to walk away is to find the path of peace. And may it not frustrate me that I cannot convince everyone to rethink their relationship with You and others. I thank You for the revelation that trouble need not stop me, slow me down, or cause me to despair. There is always the choice to walk with You through everything, and in making that choice I can go on my way rejoicing.”
My meditation on the mountain
Jesus did not own a home or rent an apartment – he stayed in the homes of others
– so there was no room he could retreat into for privacy
• no door where he could hang a “Do not disturb” sign
• but he had mountain and desert spaces
◦ in this instance he found solitude on a mountain
◦ and the twelve that went with him were “by invitation only”
– the invitation was to a new role, to become something new
• in fact, he gave three of them new names
• and because this was special, he invited them into his private office
The first phase of their new calling was to be with him
– that would qualify them for the work they were to do
• I wonder what criteria Jesus used in choosing these particular men
◦ was it because they had left everything to follow him, and he wanted that type of devotion?
◦ or perhaps because they were not special, gifted, or trained
• what we’re told is that Jesus called those he desired
◦ I want Jesus to desire me – desire me to be with him
◦ I want him to want me
Several times I have meditated on the various reactions to Jesus
Then he went home, and the crowd gathered again, so that they could not even eat. And when his family heard of it, they went out to seize him, for they were saying, “He is out of his mind”(Mk. 3:20-21)
And the scribes who came down from Jerusalem were saying, “He is possessed by Beelzebul,” and “by the prince of demons he casts out the demons” Mk. 3:22)
Jesus’ family and the scribes had different opinions about him
– both concluded something extraordinary was going on,
• but both assumed he was messed up, and both were wrong
– demon possession depicted in today’s movies and books,
• is nothing but ghost stories — garish, terrifying, and overdone
◦ I wonder whether it was as spooky in Jesus’ day as we think of it today
• perhaps people reacted to the possessed as we tend to psychotic behavior when we see it in public
◦ we feel pity and concern, but keep our distance
Most everyone I know has been shocked by Jesus’ statement
“Truly, I say to you, all sins will be forgiven the children of man, and whatever blasphemies they utter, but whoever blasphemes against the Holy Spirit never has forgiveness, but is guilty of an eternal sin”—for they were saying, “He has an unclean spirit” (Mk. 3: 28-30)
– the scribes were sincere and devoutly religious people
• and they were on a mission
◦ but they slandered Jesus and what he did for the crowds of men, women, and children
• at present, millions of people speak blasphemies every day
◦ some say hateful things about Christians and God intentionally
◦ all of that is forgivable
– I hear words spoken that jar my soul – profanity using “God” or the name of Jesus Christ
• but it doesn’t bother God the way it bothers me
• however, people who speak in the name of God or represent God to the world offend him,
◦ when they withhold mercy and express hate in his name
Conclusion: One parting look at this chapter
And his mother and his brothers came, and standing outside the sent to him and called him. And a crowd was sitting around him, and they said to him, “Your mother and your brothers are outside, seeking you.” And he answered them, “Who are my mother and my brothers?” And looking about at those who sat around him, he said, “Here are my mother and my brothers! For whoever does the will of God, he is my brother and sister and mother (Mk. 3:31-35)
The focus of this meditation is Jesus’ two families
– Jesus detached himself from the one in order to attach himself to the other
The Pharisees wanted to destroy Jesus,
The crowds wanted something from Jesus,
His mom and brothers wanted to get him home to fix him,
And the scribes wanted to discredit him
Did anyone want Jesus for Jesus?
I think those sitting around him, listening to him teach the will of God wanted him
We can be those members of his redefined family
We can be his disciples, whom he desires to be with him
We can live with open hearts, and open minds, and open hands
Meditations in Mark Chapter 2 03/05/2023
Welcome and Prayer: Jim Calhoun
A prayer for this Lenten season
Lord,
You laid down Your life and gave up everything for us.
Let us place our death in Yours
The death of our plans
The death of our expectations The death of our willfulness
The death of our selfish ambitions
The death of our imagined selves
Teach us to accept all afflictions
All disappointments
All regrets
So we may know our great need of you
So we may know your loving care
Take hold of us with Your love,
Bind our wounds
Make us whole
Make all things new
To know your voice
To know your care
To know your healing presence
So we may freely
And wholly give ourselves to you
Amen
Morning Talk: chuck smith, jr.
[Jesus] went out again beside the sea, and all the crowd was coming to him, and he was teaching them Mark 2:13
Intro: If you haven’t noticed,
There’s a pattern that many sermons and Christian books follow
– the preacher or author begin with a problem:
• what Christians or churches are doing wrong – or not doing
• then in the sermon or book they set out to solve the problem
◦ for instance, what we’re supposed to do and how to do it right
– every week people hear their preacher begin by pointing out their shortcomings
• not praying enough, giving enough, their faith isn’t strong enough, etc.
• people go to church or read books, because they hunger for God
◦ they are burdened, worn out, anxious about their family and future,
◦ some are unemployed, or perhaps a single mom, a lonely senior, a confused teen
• and in the first minutes of listening or reading, they get beaten down
– the way of Jesus is not to condemn people or place heavy yoke on them
• but he welcomes, clothes, feeds, heals, reassures, and loves them
Mark chapter 2 records four episodes of Jesus’ run-ins with the “religion police”
– they’re like a dark cloud wherever he goes
• he wasn’t looking for trouble, but he kept getting into trouble
◦ they questioned his words and actions, or his disciples’ actions
• in fact, those questions move the plot through the chapter from one episode to the next
◦ and each question that Jesus is asked begins with, “Why?”
◦ Jesus is pressured by the religion police to defend himself or his disciples
– typical of his teaching style, Jesus uses
• analogies, word pictures, and examples from the OT
• what does Mark want us to get from each of these episodes?
◦ for me, he wants to give us a glimpse of Jesus and the mystery of who he is
◦ the light of God shines through Jesus in Mark chapter 2
Jesus is the Son of Man – Why does this man speak like that?
Capernaum was a lovely, little seaside village
– Jesus returned there (cf. Mk. 1:21) and was teaching in someone’s home
• four men brought a paralyzed friend – but the house was too crowded for them to get him inside
◦ so went up on roof, dug through ceiling, lowered friend down into the room where Jesus taught
this would cause most preachers to lose their composure
– but it was exactly the kind of thing Lonnie Frisbee would have loved
• I know of specific instances when while speaking Lonnie was interrupted by some bizarre event
◦ he always seemed comfortable when that happened, as if he knew what was going on and what God’s Spirit wanted him to say and do
• that is how Jesus responded to this strange intrusion
Jesus’ first words to paralytic, “Son, you sins are forgiven”
– I think that would perturb me if I was one of the friends who brought him to Jesus
“I didn’t help carry him all the way here for that!”
• meanwhile, the religion police were offended and outraged
Why does this man speak like that? He is blaspheming! Who can forgive sins but God alone? (v. 7)
◦ they were asking themselves two questions: why and who
◦ now if they had the answer to the Who question, they would have had the answer to the Why question
• Jesus called them out, and answered them with a demonstration of what he had authority to do
– this is the truth that was revealed: The Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins
• “Son of Man” identifies him as one of us – one with us
◦ in the next chapter, he uses same expression, only plural
◦ “the sons of man” refers to all of humankind (Mk. 3:28)
“Has authority on earth to forgive sins”
• on earth, because this is where we live, this is where we suffer, and this is where we sin
◦ forgiveness is a major healing and the beginning of our complete healing
◦ it goes to the deepest roots of all that is wrong in our lives
Jesus is a Physician – Why does he eat with tax collectors and sinners
Mark describes a shocking scene
– the first shock: Jesus calls a tax collector to follow him
• the second shock comes in verse 15
And as he reclined at table in his house, many tax collectors and sinners were reclining with Jesus
• when I came to this passage in 2008, I was reading the New American Standard Bible
◦ the NASB has a note in the margin for the word “sinners”: “irreligious Jews.”
◦ when I read that, I wrote:
I’m not sure why this notation was placed here, because there is nothing in the original language to justify it. It was someone’s interpretation of the kind of guests who were present at Matthew’s dinner party. But the attempt to soften the word “sinners” is pathetic.
“Forgive us, O God, that we deny Jesus’ descent into the darkest places among the truly sinful. We try to protect the purity of his image. We tell other Christians that it is not okay to hang out with sinners. Forgive us for trying to justify our resistance to being among people who do not share our faith or are antagonistic to it. Forgive our resistance to loving them, even though that is what the Lord taught us by his example. Don’t let us forget what we were.”
– I am forever amazed and grateful for Jesus’ answer in verse 17
Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.
• I am one of his patients – and that means I am his problem
◦ I cannot heal myself (any more than paralytic could stand up on his own)
• Jesus moves among all the broken people
◦ caring for them, defending them, and defending his love for them
Jesus is a Bridegroom – Why do . . . your disciples not fast?
I hear another unasked question:
“How come your disciples aren’t as dismal, unpleasant, and depressing as John’s disciples and the religion police?”
– the answer was, “Because my disciples are at a wedding, not a funeral”
• they had not learned to be miserable from Jesus
◦ fasting is a way of expressing grief and contrition
• they had his forgiveness, his help, his love – they had hope
◦ they were following Jesus, not religion
– Jesus went on to use analogies – a new patch on new cloth and new wine in new wine skins
• the kind of fasting they did was a duty, a routine piety
• wine sometimes has positive connotations in scripture–cf. Jdg. 9:13; Ps. 104:14-15
◦ Jesus’ first miracle mentioned in John’s gospel was when he turned water into wine at wedding
– the old religious system was not ready for this,
• it was an old wine skin that could not accommodate the new wine
• some Christians believe there’s a spiritual advantage to fasting
◦ but every spiritual need we have is fulfilled in Jesus
Jesus is like David – Why are they doing what is not lawful?
Years ago I learned a valuable truth from a seminary professor
Chuck Kraft, “The Scriptures are inspired–our interpretations are not inspired.”
– interpretations change as we learn more about the Bible
• they also change with cultural shifts (e.g., when women began wearing slacks in mid-20th century)
• Jesus’ disciples were not breaking any Sabbath law,
◦ but the were violating one of the interpretations of Sabbath law
– David provided a good example of the Lord’s point
– Jesus’ actions were similar to David’s, and Jesus had disciples as David had his companions
• it was a bold comparison – the Messiah would be a descendant of David
• but then Jesus makes an even bolder statement
Jesus is the Lord of the Sabbath
The Sabbath was made for man, not man for the Sabbath. So the Son of Man is lord even of the Sabbath(vv. 27-28)
In the Old Testament, God set strict boundaries around the Sabbath
– he was adamant about Sabbath-keeping, and required Israel to treat it seriously
• so who is this Son of Man that God would make him lord of the Sabbath?
◦ Jesus is saying that God has authorized him to make the Sabbath rules
◦ or at least to be the one who interprets the rules correctly
• this rattles the entire law and how they understood and used it
◦ we must look at it through new eyes — the Sabbath was made for men and women
◦ and we must look at Jesus with those same eyes if we want to know God’s purposes for us
Conclusion: I have one other meditation from this chapter I want to share with you
He went out again beside the sea, and all the crowd was coming to him (v. 13)
“Reading these words, I longed to be there. Right now, I do not want to read another book, or listen to a sermon, or learn of someone’s method of prayer. I wish I could follow Jesus down to the beach and listen to whatever is on his mind. Jesus would not concern himself with being profound or clever. I doubt he would have “three points,” or use alliteration, or acronyms, or any other “preacher gimmicks.”
If we walked together alone, I would ask him, ‘Lord, what is wrong with me? What do You want from me that I haven’t been giving You? From Your perspective, what’s the most important concern of my life? What should have my undivided attention in this stage of life?’
Two times in this chapter Jesus was either preaching or teaching (vv. 1-2 and13). Mark doesn’t give us an indication that Jesus had planned to preach or teach, and in neither instance does Mark report what Jesus taught–not one word of it. Everything was spontaneous. Jesus’ words were for that moment; they fit what was happening in that moment. That is what I want: spontaneity. To be with Jesus and hear whatever he has to say for this moment. To be free from all past and all future moments. What is Jesus doing here, now?”
What happens when we take those meaningful walks along the shore?
Jesus stretches the imagination of our faith
And deepens the reservoir of our love
Moses’ “Staff Meeting” 02/12/2023
Welcome and Prayer: Nancy Lopez
Good morning! Welcome to RefleXion. The Lord is with you.
Last week Chuck talked about parables and their working into our soil though we don’t even realizeit. Then, later, we might recognize or realize something by the pattern that had been planted. I love that idea and the idea that changing our viewpoint…well, changes our point of view!
I want to share a word with you that I’ve been playing with for a couple of years; that word is “Realize, “but I think of it as “Real Eyes,” gazing at the unseen Real. It has to do with seeing differently, the Reál, the Royal Way, the Jesus Way. In other words, seeing something for what it is vs. what I prefer, what I’ve been taught, or what I’ve always thought. Maybe it’s not a complete picture, but something I didn’t see before is “Real-Eyesed,” something more Real.
I’m referring today to two woman mystics. First, I’m reading a quote from Evelyn Underhill (20th century) in her devotional “Light of Christ.” Listen for how she uses the word “realize.”
“You know how sometimes one goes to see a church which one is told has magnificent windows—and seen from outside they all look alike—dull, thick, grubby. We probably say, ‘Well! It is obvious there is good glass here, but we cannot realise it.’ Then we open the door and go inside—leave the outer world, enter the inner world—and the universal light floods through the windows and bathes us in their colour and beauty and significance, shows us things of which we had never dreamed, a loveliness that lies beyond the fringe of speech. And so, in the same way we cannot realise God and His eternal Truth and Beauty, from outside. One constantly hears people commenting on Christianity from outside and missing the point every time. They are on the wrong side of the wall. How important then it is for us to be familiar with the inner vision. It is from within the place of prayer, recollection, worship, and love, where the altar is, where the sacrifice is made, where we are all bound together in a life of communion and self-giving to God, that we fully and truly receive the revelation which is made though Christ. To re-enter that Cathedral, receive a fresh gift from its inexhaustible beauty, see through those windows more and more of the light of God, that is the secret of meditation.”
That is how, I believe, we can real-eyes God’s viewpoint and be on the Real Way of Jesus, the New Way of the Spirit.
Our prayer this morning is from the thoughts of Dame Julian of the 14th century:
Lord, we remember what was revealed to your daughter Julian, her vision of Christ that was ‘Light, Life and Love’ and that everything was gathered in that. May Your Spirit show us the Truth, quicken us to fresh vitality, and fill us with adoring devotion. May we real-eyes Your Vision for us. We come into the silence now to real-eyes more Light, Life and Love. We come to contemplate our Christian treasure from the inside, in the Real, the Way of Jesus. Amen
Morning Talk: chuck smith, jr.
The LORD spoke to Moses, saying, “Speak to the people of Israel, and get from them staffs, one for each fathers’ house, from all their chiefs according to their fathers’ houses, twelve staffs. Write each man’s name on his staff, and write Aaron’s name on the staff of Levi. For there shall be one staff for the head of each father’s house. Then you shall deposit them in the tent of meeting before the testimony, where I meet with you. And the staff of the man whom I choose shall sprout. . . .
On the next day, Moses went into the tent of the testimony, and behold, the staff of Aaron for the house of Levi had sprouted and put forth buds and produced blossoms, and it bore ripe almonds. Numbers 17:1-11
Intro: This is an odd story
Not only for the strange miracle that God sets up,
– but also because it seems unnecessary in the context of the larger narrative
• the people of Israel were disappointed and discouraged
◦ their situation was primed for discontent and insurrection
• four rebellions had been staged and subdued:
◦ Moses’ sister and brother (ch. 12)
◦ the whole nation turned from God at the border of Canaan (ch. 14)
◦ a clan of rebels that refused to follow Moses any further (16:1-3, 12-34)
◦ a crew of Levites, who claimed rights to the priesthood (16:4-11, 35)
– in each instance, God intervened and punished the rebels
• so God’s choice for priesthood and service in the sanctuary would seem obvious
• however, considering Israel’s state of mind, and history of complaint and stubbornness,
◦ extra evidence for God’s choice may have been required
At that time, and in desert, a staff had many uses:
– support for standing and walking, herding flocks and cattle, prying, and as a weapon
• staffs were personalized – you could identify its owner by looking at it (cf. Gen. 38:25-26)
• in two passages–I know of–a staff is coupled with a scepter (Gen. 49:10; Num. 21:17-18)
◦ the staff was a symbol of leadership
◦ that is why each staff here was one that belonged to the head of a community
– so if we give this story a title, it could be “Moses’ Staff Meeting”
There is something else in this story I find strange
The test will be to see which staff will “sprout”
– what would it take to qualify one staff as the winner?
• a fresh, green twig? a short twig with one small leaf?
◦ what Moses found the next morning was that Aaron’s staff
had sprouted and put forth buds and produced blossoms, and it bore ripe almonds (v. 8)
• doesn’t that sound excessive?
Robert Alter, “. . . this fast-forwarding of a slow process of growth spectacularly confirms the miraculous character of the event.”
◦ a line from Bruce Almighty comes to mind
“Okay, now you’re just showing off”
– as I was meditating on this passage, I wondered,
• “Is there more to this story than what I’m seeing?”
◦ the thought that came to me was:
◦ perhaps God is saying something here about the leader he chooses
• so I read it again, and found a possible meaning:
◦ some personal characteristics of a person God is pleased to use
◦ then I made a list
There is nothing novel or profound about my list
– as I go over these items, you’re going to think, “Of course”
• still, they were a good reminder for me
• and since God hasn’t given me a new series topic yet,
◦ I’m going to share my mediation with you
– I believe that what I have to say applies to every follower of Jesus
The miracle took place in the inner chamber of God’s sanctuary
I’ve been reading Tyler Staton’s, Pray Like Monks, Live like Fools
– he doesn’t say anything we haven’t heard or don’t know already,
• but he does well in reminding us and nudging us toward God
Staton, “. . . this book is an invitation to what cannot be taught, only discovered. . . . An invitation to be found by God in the place he’s most faithfully been found throughout history: not in a megachurch with Broadway lights and arena-rock fog machines or in the eloquent podcast of a contrarian thinker, but in the bare silence of you and the endless expanse beyond you.”
• the inner chamber is where God reveals his presence
– prayer is our conscious connection with God
• okay–my grandchildren use me, and I know it
◦ when they were small and lived with us,
◦ would come into my room and sit on my lap, just to be with me – nothing more
• for our prayer to become an encounter,
◦ we need to realize it’s more than just asking for things
◦ it’s resting in the invisible, yet real and holy Presence
So, the first characteristic of God’s chosen servant is prayer
– this is where the miracle begins – where our lives are changed
The next characteristic is LIFE
When the Hebrew Scriptures take a jab at idols, they point out the fact that idols are lifeless
. . . every goldsmith is put to shame by his idols,
for his images are false,
and there is no breath in them (Jer. 10:14)
– I think now, perhaps more than ever, we need to be cautious
• we can fabricate a religious experience – a sense of “church”
• I met a young man, raised Christian and in charge of an inner city mission
◦ but he had stopped believing in God
◦ but still, he was working to create a church-like community without a god
– how much do we need God or depend on God to do church?
• it’s possible to create a lot of programs for people,
◦ so they don’t feel the emptiness of not encountering God
◦ many Christian leaders believe they must control people, and they use programs to do it
• the word “fabricate” has two meanings:
◦ to manufacture something and to make up something untrue
◦ we do both when we make something that looks like a work of God, but isn’t
God is the Giver of life – he gives new life to his people
– Jesus said that those who believe and follows his teaching
have passed from death to life (Jn. 4:24)
• this message saturates the New Testament, so I won’t press the point (especially the writings of John)
• if we live a God-given life, we don’t have to fake anything
– coupled with life, is growth – and there is no end to this
The next characteristic is FRUIT
Jesus emphasized fruit as goal of our relationship with him
I am the true vine, and my Father is the vine-dresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit (Jn. 15:102)
– when Jesus warned his followers of “false prophets,” he said,
You will recognize them by their fruits. Are grapes gathered from thornbushes, or figs from thistles? So, every healthy tree bears good fruit, but the diseased tree bears bad fruit . . . Thus you will recognize them by their fruits (Mt. 7:15)
• I am much more at peace with myself than I used to be
• there was a time when I hated having an unproductive day
◦ and right up there with unproductive was being ineffective
◦ days are important, but what counts is my whole life
– others will produce more fruit than I have – that’s cool
• I just want to be as fruitful as God wants me to be
Another characteristic is BEAUTY
I get that from the blossom that the staff produced
– there is a beauty that is superficial and can be disappointing
• St. Peter encouraged women to adorn
the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit (1 Pe. 3:4)
• there’s no good reason not to apply that instruction to men as well
– there are times when we want to look our best,
• but it would not hurt, if every day we asked ourselves,
◦ “Am I a beautiful person?”
◦ “Do I add beauty to the world through my presence, words, and actions?”
• compassion is beautiful; generosity can be beautiful;
◦ forgiveness is beautiful; kindness is beautiful;
◦ the gift of a flower, or a smile, or a hug can be beautiful
The last characteristic I imagine is FRAGRANCE
Like beauty, I relate that to the blossom
– it has to do with the impression we make and leave on others
For we are the aroma of Christ to God among those who are being saved and those who are perishing, to one a fragrance from death to death, to the other a fragrance of life to life. Who is sufficient for these things? (2 Cor. 2:15-16)
Conclusion: I don’t want to leave you with impression that this is all up to you
As we read, it was God who caused the staff to sprout
God gives us life and makes us fruitful and beautiful and fragrant
My first “real” job was working at a fish and chips restaurant. The other employees and I did everything. We cut up the fish, battered and deep fried them, deep fried the chips, wrapped it all up and sold them to the customers. Because my work was close to my home, I could walk both ways. My high school was between work and home. One Friday evening, walking home I noticed there was a dance happening at the school, so I got in line to buy a ticket. But after a couple minutes, I heard a girl somewhere in the line behind me say, “I smell fish!” Quietly I exited the line and went home.
My aroma that evening was not the result of applying a new cologne (eau de poisson), but from being emerged in the atmosphere of my job.
If we spend time in the garden of prayer, we’ll come out smelling like roses
September 29, 2019
This week we were fortunate that Kelsey Kapauff was able to be with us and share what she has learned and experienced in her spiritual journey.
Contemplation
Set an Intent: Welcoming Prayer
Thank you for the honor of being here with you today.
I am going to be talking with you about contemplation! The funny thing about me sitting up here is that to be honest I wouldn’t call myself a contemplative. I have been on a path that has led me to the contemplative tradition the past couple years, but I am very much still a student of the tradition.
When I started learning about the idea of contemplation I was captivated.
I almost immediately took a class to learn more and the thing I loved about this class was that we weren’t only learning about contemplation intellectually but we were encouraged to explore the contemplative practices as well.. Meditation being one of them.
Now I have two kids… and trying to meditate in the mornings is almost impossible with them around.
I would sit to meditate, and the kids would come rushing in, interrupt me. And I would be left with a feeling of frustration that I didn’t get what I needed, and then I would react to my kids often in a short and frustrated way.
Until one day I was listening to an interview one of my teachers did with a young mom. She was having the same issue as me. She was so excited about her contemplative journey, and she would wake up with this longing to connect with God, but inevitably her kids would come in and interrupt her, leaving her left with a sense of frustration.
My teacher responded to her like this- “I want you to imagine for a moment that I am God, and then talk to me about what been going on….”
Talking to the professor as “God” she then explained her predicament. He then said now I want you to imagine I am God talking to you…
As “God”, he responded with something like, “I see your longing for me, your love for me… and it so delights me. The thing is…. I love you so much that I want to hold and be held by you, so I jump into the bodies of you kids and run out to you so that we can simply embrace each other.”
As I heard this story I wept.
It made me realize in that moment that my pursuit and my “trying” to connect with God can become the very thing that get in the way of me seeing that we are connected…..
What if the very thing that is interrupting, or distracting us, is in itself a part of how we can connect with God, instead of a thing getting in the way of our connection to God?
God comes to us disguised as our very lives.- Paula D’Arcy
So…
Next morning I tried seeing differently but I just ended up:
• Responding “better” on the outside
• Rejecting and suppressing my feelings and thoughts…
• Praying it away- note: sometimes prayer can distract us from the present…
Eventually I could do nothing but
Surrender- let go of everything I was holding onto. I simply stopped trying to change myself and the situation. In doing so I just chose to be present to what was.
In the letting go, in my relinquishing of control I experienced something I couldn’t describe. My kids ran out and its as if a layer was lifted from my eyes and I saw God in them. I felt this deep connection to God in their presence.
I was overwhelmed with love, my eyes welled with tears, and I breathed in deep this indescribable moment.
Its as if I saw love living and moving within and around me…
In the letting go, I realized what I was looking for, striving for, was simply there all along. On the outside nothing had changed, but internally I experienced a shift in how I saw, a shift in my awareness.
I had been learning about contemplation, but this was one of my first moments experiencing it. _______________________________________________________________________ Contemplation is something that story can describe a lot better than hard definitions can…
Its hard to define because much of it is truly beyond our understanding, and therefore beyond our descriptions. So as we talk about contemplation today I want to start off by saying that no explanation of contemplation can touch the depth of what it is.
Its like talking about an orgasm- you can explain the crap out of it, but experiencing it is a whole other thing.
In Philipians 2:5, Paul says, “Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus”
I love this.
Paul isn’t saying
May you know the same things as Jesus knew He isn’t saying
May you have a mind that is similar to Jesus mind He is talking about
A merging of minds
May the “same” mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus… He is talking about acquiring the consciousness of Christ.
This is contemplation.
It is a mode of perception that is in tune with the divine…
An encounter with pure awareness itself, an encounter with the greater truth. Thomas Merton describes Contemplation like this:
“It is life itself, fully awake, fully active, and fully aware it is alive. It is spiritual wonder. It is spontaneous awe at the sacredness of life, of being.”
It is this way of seeing that goes beyond our normal observable realities.
Most of us function from a lens of object awareness most of the time.
We are focused on something. A person, a place, an emotion, a though, and we spend our conscious energy on the thing that is the object of our attention.
Right now the object of your attention can either be me, or a daydream you are going with in your mind, or maybe its something else your looking at in this room…
Our “normal” conscious state splits and focuses, splits and focuses…
But when it comes to God there is no splitting.
He is omnipresent with all.
God doesn’t function with object awareness, and if he did that would really suck for all of us if he could only focus on us one at a time…
But what we know and believe to be true about God is that he is simultaneously with us all, present to us all. And not only us, he is present to all of creation…
This kind of consciousness is objectless.
Its a whole other kind of perceiving, and seeing…
Another phrase to describe this mode of awareness is: _________________________
Non-Dual Seeing.
Which is a mode of seeing that doesn’t separate.
As we know dual thinking is thinking that splits. good and bad
Us and them
Weak and strong
Conservative liberal Beautiful ugly
Dual thinking is important as we are first forming concepts.
For example when my daughter was learning about temperature, she learned it in the context of its opposite.
She knew something was hot because she had felt something cold. But now that she is getting older she’s realizing that those two opposing extremes cannot hold the breadth of the various temperatures.
So although dual thinking serves a purpose for all of us, it can only take us so far… Especially with religion.
If we view God as being out there, then we wont spend time learning to pay attention to what he is saying in here, we will simply be waiting and looking out.
If we only expect to feel near to God at church, or at the beach, or wherever it is we seem to look for God, then our eyes can be blind to Gods movement in other spaces.
Non dual consciousness takes away the lines, God is no longer out there, or in here, or over there.
God is in all. Immanent in you and I, yet simultaneously transcendent and above you and I… This way of seeing opens us up to so much more than our categories allow.
Non-dualistic thinking allows us to get outside of the mind that wants us to split and categorize and allows us to simply hold what is.
Its a wider more expansive view that is awake to deeper realties… __
I do want to make clear that the purpose of non-dual consciousness isn’t to diminish our differences… or to be blind to them…
That line of thought can be unhelpful and even destructive…
Being color-blind is a good example of this. When we are “color blind” we fail to recognize both the beauty in a person of color and the pain that has been caused by systemic systems of oppression… which then can keep us from doing what we can to build a more loving world.
Non-dual consciousness, simply expands our view and takes the attention off of what separates.
In this sense we can more fully celebrate the unique beauty of our differences when they are not all that we see, when they are not the objects of our attention…
This state of awareness that taps into the deeper streams of truth that our categories can blind us to…
As humans most of us have experienced what it is like to see with these non-dual eyes… even if we have just had small glimpses…
We often experience these non-dual moments when we experience great pain, or great love because these experiences often have the ability to shatter our comfortable categories…
For example:
When you fall in love with someone of a different race than you, that you once looked down upon.
Category of us and them shattered.
When you do something that really hurt someone else, that you never though you would do. Category of good and bad shattered.
When your baby is born with special needs, and your previous perceptions are shattered because that baby is the most beautiful person you have ever laid eyes on…
When you go through something that is beyond painful, yet it ends up being one the most beautiful inner experiences…
When we experience something that simple categories simply cant describe… It often encourages us towards a more non-dual mindset…
I experienced this when I was with my dear friend who recently lost her husband to suicide.
We were packing up her home, putting in boxes her memories, he life that was permeated with her husband Andrews presence. It was a painfully sacred experience. We packed, and cried. Packed and cried. At the end of the day, after packing all of their things, it was time for her three beautiful boys to go to bed. The thing about life is that even in midst the greatest pain, it doesn’t stop. I wanted to help, but they understandably wanted their mom. I waited in the other room as my exhausted (on every level) friend, then put her boys to sleep. After some time, she walked out of their bedroom.
I watched as she walked over to where I was sitting and simply collapsed to the ground. I had never experienced anything like this before. I watched as the pain in her heart manifested in her body, and all she could do was fall to the floor.
We sat there on the floor together weeping, holding each other. I can’t come close to imagining all that was happening within her in that moment. The pain that I was feeling was deep, but nothing close to what she was sitting in. It was just too much. We started to ask God Why? Confused, angry, and utterly broken. Simultaneously bewildered by God, His presence permeated that moment. Love was alive. Love was alive in the questions, in the pain, in the embracing of each other, in every confusing piece, love was there. It was one of the most raw and real moments of my life.
In the brokenness the thing that was so apparent to me was the sacredness of it all. To be with her in that moment, will always be one of my most dear memories. Which sounds odd… How could one fo the most painful moments of my life be one of the most beautiful?
There is no explanation that could make sense of it all, it simply was.
It was this moment of expansive embrace of the whole.
A moment of intense oneness with each other, and with God.
The difficult thing is that this way of seeing cant be forced. We cant just put on these new eyes whenever we want…
But we can offer up a posture of least resistance, so that we may be overcome- as James Finley describes…
Paul goes on in Phil 2 to describe that what that posture of least resistance looks like…
5 Let the same mind be in you that was in Christ Jesus,
6 who, though he was in the form of God,
did not regard equality with God
as something he should cling to,
7 instead He emptied himself,
So in order to enter into the consciousness of Christ, Jesus emptied himself…
The greek word for this emptying being (kenosis)- the act of self- emptying, this beautiful act of Surender..
And he says the opposite of self emptying is clinging.. I mean visually think about the difference…
Cling- crouch over, protective stance, holding tightly, often holding of breath Emptying- a release, openness, vulnerable, exhale
This is why breathing exercises are so powerful in our path of surrender, when we pay attention to our breath we recognize were again and again, releasing…
This process of kenosis.. can often bring up some scary things within us that can make us pull back into clinging…
We all have things that we are currently clinging to… things that are not easy to release…
Things that our Ego does not want to let go of, things we cling to our of our desire to protect ourselves, things we cling to that make us feel comfortable…
- It’s interesting because in my own process of surrender, one of the hardest thing for me to let go of was my certainty about God.
- I was taught to read the Bible in a certain way.
- I was taught that God moved in specific ways.
- And I was taught that if you had deep faith, you surely wouldn’t doubt the doctrines that my
specific tradition taught… - I studied theology and I came out of bible school pretty confident.
- I quickly became a pastor and I watched as people clung to my confidence about what I
believed and made it their own.. I not only felt truly confident that I held many truths, My ego loved, I mean loveddd feeling important.
Little by little as time went on I realized that I spent a lot of time being spoon-fed what to believe, and I was taught very little about how to believe. - I was asked one time about my thoughts on heaven and hell and as I confidently answered I listened to myself speaking so confidently, and my inner voice was saying “you don’t really know!!!”
I was clinging more to what I knew about God than to God himself…. That was and still is a very humbling realization….
How comical that I had to let go and surrender some of my certainty about God, in order to “put on this mind of Christ” Paul is talking about.
This was a surrendering of a large part of what I thought was my identity too.
The process of letting go for me felt scary because I felt like I was losing myself. I was the one with wisdom (for my very small group of people mind you)
Who would I be if I wasn’t that person?
What I continue to learn and re-learn is that even thought at times surrender feels like a losing of self, the opposite happens. I find my true self in the process…
A self that is free.
The self that simply is, the self that is loved, the self that no longer has to prove anything.
This is our true selves. The self that cannot be offended. The self that is loved by God for simply being.
But none of us live out of this self all of the time, and probably never will while we’re alive.
This is why Self emptying isn’t this one time thing, its an every day thing…
Which I find very encouraging in my own contemplative path…
Im not going backwards when I start to cling, it’s simply another opportunity for me to return to the ever present God.
Contemplative practices are super helpful tools that can help us grow these muscles of surrender, so that we may tune into this divine awareness…
But before I jump into what some of those practices are I want to make clear that contemplative seeing is not simply about intellectual understanding.
It’s about integrated awareness. Full being awareness…
This attunement to Gods resonance is not simply in tune through our
Mind- that thinks about God
or our heart- that lovingly embraces God or body,- that senses God
because in this non-dual state of consciousness there is no separation of self.
Which is what Jesus is speaking to when he says, “Love the lord you’re God with all your heart soul and mind.”
It’s this whole being connectedness to the whole…
This was super helpful for me to recognize when I started doing more contemplative practices…
We can think our way to God,
But we can be our way to God, because it’s in our whole undivided being where God Himself dwells.
This is the point of many of the practices. To show up, and simply be present. Without expectation of what we desire God to do….
If we are trying to enter into practices with specific goals and hopes, those things can become the very things that keep us from truly entering in.
Even if they are good things!!! Again Kenosis, Kenosis, Kenosis
The practices are helpful because they help us enter into the present moment, and offer up that position of least resistance:
Contemplative practices are not contemplation in themselves, they simply work our muscles of consent, and can help us enter into that contemplative divine seeing.
Some of those practices being:
Stillness practices: Centering prayer Meditation
Creative Practices: Painting, journaling, singing Relational Practices: Deep listening, storytelling Movement Practices: dance, yoga, labyrinth walking
Truly Contemplation can be found anywhere though, because as we talked about its a way of being and seeing.
Sometimes ill sit and try and surrender and enter in and I just feel more and more distant from God even if mentally I believe thats impossible…
But then other times in my surrender to the moment I am simply overcome by this contemplative mind.
I had a contemplative moment gazing at a bell pepper once! Finley describes contemplative moment like this:
In the quietness of the attentive gaze, one comes upon a certain presciousness, an immediate worth, that which no words can be found….”
Contemplation does not simply stop at conscious awareness.
Some people think that the opposite of contemplation is action, but that’s just not true…
The opposite of contemplation is reaction… an acting out of our small self..
True contemplation will always result in active and dynamic love.
Which makes sense right?
If God is the source of love could entering into the consciousness of Christ result in anything less than love?
I want to end with this picture of The Trinity.
This is Perichorseis. Which is the greek word for the relationship between father son and spirit, whom are continually in relationship with each other both pouring out and receiving love from the other.
And our lives are a part of this sacred dance.
Every day, every moment we are participating in the sacred dance of love.
In
Our waking Our being
Our seeing
Our connecting Our trying
Our failing
Our longing Our searching
All of it, all of life, is steeped in the love of God…
Contemplation is simply a waking up to this reality that is already true.
September 22, 2019
Guest Speaker: Esther Dewitt
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me – put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. Philippians 4: 4-9
This summer we have been exploring the physiology connected to the psychology that creates the mental, emotional and behavioral patterns that lead us in the wrong direction. Chuck has been educating us, connecting the science with the spiritual, as we have considered the prospect of re-writing the owner’s and operations manual for our Brain. The impact this series has had on me has been significant as we have considered how our personal history has been imprinted on our brain and nervous system, forming the habits of our lifetime. How these, over time, through trauma, hurt, and wounding developed into pathways, the ones that make us feel like we are stuck or heading in the wrong direction, the ones that lead us away from the God of peace and the peace of God, to anxiety, depression, frustration, discouragement, conflict, anger and a host of other harmful and hurtful spaces.
Fortunately, we have not studied this just to discover a hard reality, to be left knowing how we got to the places we don’t want to be. Our study has been to empower us, to understand that simply because we have been heading in one direction, does not mean we have to stay heading there. All that we have been learning has been to draw us towards repentance, towards changing our direction.
Repentance is more than quitting a list of clearly articulated biblically wrong behaviors. We repent not just from a traditionally accepted list of sins.
Repentance is a changing of direction. It is more than a change too.
It is an intentional change of direction. It is a choosing of a specific direction. It doesn’t occur automatically or instinctively. It isn’t the simple exchange of one behavior, pattern, way of thinking or doing for another. Repentance involves the recognition that the well-worn path we have been on is not getting us where we want to go. In repentance we make the conscious, intentional choice to change direction to move towards God, the God of Peace, away from the paths and patterns that have gotten us stuck, that have caused damage to us and our relationships, and towards healing and in the direction of wholeness and restoration, towards the peace of God.
Romans 2 tells us that it is God’s kindness that leads us to repentance. We are not led to repentance out of punishment or condemnation.
But that doesn’t make it easy. Repentance causes us to forge an unfamiliar course. It can feel uncomfortable. It challenges us. The change of repentance is not easy.
We do not have make these changes on our own, in our power. In John chapter 14 verses 26 and 27 Jesus tells us that the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace, I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.
We have help, we have a teacher, to help us turn from our fear and troubled hearts, but it’s a learning process. We will need to be reminded. The Holy Spirit will teach us, will remind us. As we develop new habits, new patterns, we will need that help, those reminders. That is not failure, it is a part of the process.
Is it worth it? If we know going in that making changes, heading in a new direction will be hard and uncomfortable, why we would do it?
Why bother?
We do it because we recognize and acknowledge that our current paths are not getting us where we want to be. They are leading in the wrong direction, possibly in circles, exhausting us without offering real progress, causing damage to our relationships, creating conflict internally and externally. So even though these thought and behavior patterns seem natural and comfortable, and we follow them instinctively, we know at our core that they can never get us where we want to be, they will never lead us to Spiritual or emotional healing.
And we are all wounded. We have all been hurt. Our stories are different, but we are all in need of healing.
In fact, many of the paths we want to turn from were created as we consciously or unconsciously fled or tried protect ourselves after we were hurt, or when were in search of healing and safety, but they took us in the wrong direction. Whatever the motive or circumstances that led us there, we don’t have to stay, we are not committed to those paths. Through the work of the Holy Spirit we have the power, the strength to make the change, to repent and change direction.
The challenge then, is to find strategies to resist returning to the old patterns and paths, to find the tools we need to forge the new path.
We find these strategies in Philippians 4, although because many of us have heard this passage many, many times, we can miss the practical tools it offers.
Several years ago when I was in my training to become a Certified Anger Management Specialist, I found myself in awe that the emotional strategies of our training, although dressed up in psychological terms and labels have at their root these same recommendation of Paul to the church in Philippi.
Does it make you feel any better to know that you are not alone in this process? It does me. I am comforted when we are honest together as a community, as followers of Christ, about our need for repentance, our need to change our old patterns. I am also encouraged by the goal set forward in it, the reward: to experience the peace of God, and the nearness of the presence of the God of peace. Yes, I want less harshness and more gentleness, less anxiety and more thankfulness, I want those things, but I feel a great need to experience more peace, the peace of God, and a great need to experience the presence of the God of peace, and that for me is a reason to step out my comfort zone, away from the natural, instinctive patterns, and towards repentance and new a path that will lead me closer to God.
A biblical strategy to break the cycle
The Living Bible Paraphrased translates Philippians 4:8, fix your thoughts on what is true and good and right. Think about things that are pure and lovely, dwell on the fine, good things in others. Think about all you can praise God for and be glad about it.
Our thoughts trigger emotions, which form moods. In our current culture we are bombarded with bad news. Bad news sells, it spreads, and it can sink in. We can easily develop thought patterns of negativity. We get stuck in the problems, and the worst case scenarios, what is wrong and what might go wrong, in addition to dwelling on what has gone wrong in the past. These negative thoughts breed fear, worry, anxiety, depression, anger, frustration and a sense of being overwhelmed. The negative spins around, catching us up in its loop.
If we view verse 8 as a strategy to break this cycle, we can see the sign posts for the new path in front of us. We are encouraged to think on the things that are noble, right, pure, lovely, admirable, excellent and praiseworthy. The Message translation says that we will do our best by filling our minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious – the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse.
I’m not suggesting we stick our heads in the sand over the evil in the world, that we become Polly Anna’s pretending that everything is rosy when it is not. It is intentionally deciding to spend time thinking about the good, the praiseworthy things. Especially when you notice that anxiety, anger, depression, and other distressing emotions have settled in.
So how do we do this? With intentionality. We seek out the positive things, we go looking for them. We capture them, write them down and keep them close to us when we find them, so we can return to them, intentionally and meditate on them. It may be a photo of nature that reminds you of God’s creativity and beauty, it may be a story of someone doing something heroic, that reminds you of the admirable, or remembering and writing so you can re-visit the kindness that someone showed you. As you sense the negative input dragging you down the wrong thought and emotional path, your reminders of what is lovely, true, noble, praiseworthy are there and ready for you turn your focus to. And as we are thinking of these better things, these things to praise, we take the time to thank God for them, remembering that all truly good things come from Him, and this brings us into His peace. It reminds us that He is good.
Do you find there is a time of day where your thoughts go heavy or dark? Where your memories return to hurts or disappointments, failures or rejections? In some quiet space where the memory pattern of your mind naturally returns, triggering sadness, discouragement, fear, or disappointment? As our notes from the message last week suggested, being aware of these experiences is important if we are to break the patterns. Again, intentionally being prepared is a key strategy to forming a new habit.
I have a couple of practices I suggest. Take a notebook, a journal, a pad of paper, and across the top of multiple blank pages write the title of a list. Maybe the list is things or people I am thankful for, or the Names of God, or the qualities of God. Maybe the list is beautiful and amazing things in God’s creation. Don’t fill out the list, just title it. Maybe on each page is a different list, maybe the same list for multiple pages. Then place that journal or notebook or pad, in close proximity to where you frequently are when those repetitive heavy dark thoughts come. Do you wake up with them many mornings? Place it by your bed or cereal box or coffee pot, and take 5 minutes to fill out the list when you notice those thoughts.
Are there places you go frequently that trigger these negative thoughts and emotions? Does a doctor’s office waiting room send you to the purgatory of ‘What If’ or anxiety? Carry your blank list in your car, in a bag, in your wallet, start it as a note on your tablet or phone. Have it clearly titled and ready, because as the thoughts begin their familiar cycle in your brain, an empty page is usually not enough to interrupt the pattern, and you are more likely to stare at it blankly or to make a chore or shopping list on it.
Being aware means taking the time to check in and pay attention. What are we experiencing physically, mentally, emotionally? When I listen to this music do I notice myself feeling sad? When I watch that news do I clench my jaw or tense my shoulders? When I engage in that activity do I feel drained and empty afterwards? We can do this as we look for patterns, times and experiences that trigger certain reactions and send us down certain paths, and we apply this awareness to the present, here and now, learning to recognize when we are not where we want to be, and when we want to stop and turn in a different direction.
We can build new and positive experiences, learning to savor them, letting them sink in, marinating them, so that they crowd out the memory space in our limbic system. They are not erasing previous negative experiences, but they are claiming more of the space. To do this we often have to interrupt the tyranny of busyness. Let the little things, the positives that you enjoy, add up internally. We help capture these memories by increasing our sensory experiences of them. Breathe in the ocean air, or the mountain air and pause to let it sink in. Close your eyes to listen to the music, and let it sink in. Smell the roses, the lilacs, the pine trees. Stop and feel the sun, the rain drops or the wind on your face. Catalog in your mind the chill of the evening as you stargaze. Take a photo of the sunset or rainbow, draw or paint the bird. Watch the squirrel run around, notice how the puppy plays with abandon. If in the moment we stop and experience as many of the senses as possible during positive experiences, smell, touch, sight, sound we help them seep deep and our brain can memorize those experiences and the positive feelings they trigger. The moment of calm, the laughter of joy, the wonder of beauty. These are building new paths, paths towards internal healing.
Try writing about your positive experiences shortly after you have them. Writing a couple of paragraphs about the beauty or joy or wonder of the sunset or sunrise, the waterfall, playing with the child, or singing in the car. If you don’t like to write in paragraphs, make a quick list. The senses you experienced, your thoughts, your emotions – all of the positive ones you can remember. If you took a photo or made a drawing, give it a caption, a description that identifies the positives. It is a conscious re-living of the positive and it helps to consolidate those memories, storing them more securely. If you tell someone else about them, you are reinforcing the memory again.
Build positive connections with Scriptures as well. Ask the Holy Spirit if there is a message from Scripture for you in the experience. As you reflect on your positive experience does it remind you of a Scripture? This is just for you, it doesn’t have to make sense to others. As you remember the amazing piece of pie does it make you think of “taste and see that the Lord is good”, as you admired the full moon did it remind you of the verse “praise Him sun and moon, praise Him all you shining stars.” (Psalm 148:4). If a verse or passage comes to mind write it down. Sometimes nothing pops up right away, but later we are reading and the positive memory returns, and we see a connection to the verse, write that down, record it next a note about your experience. If you printed out a picture, write the verse on the back of the photo, place it somewhere you will see it and be reminded of it.
It took a while for most of our old patterns to be formed. It can take a while for these new ones to be formed. It isn’t a magic wand. We make a plan, intentionally practice the plan, then rinse and repeat. Repetition is how the new paths become natural, normal, and even comfortable. We keep returning to listen to the Holy Spirit, it’s not a one-time lesson, and we are not failing because we need reminders.
Focusing awareness on our thoughts
One of the most un-natural and yet important things we can do in the changing, the repentance, process is to challenge our thoughts. Our thoughts can lie to us. Just because we think something that does not mean that it is true. Our thoughts may have been formed from false input, what others told us and we accepted, or by faulty conclusions, how we processed and made sense of information. We can question our thoughts, challenge them, seek out the truth, and choose to replace the lies we previously believed.
This is especially true with our thoughts about God and how He feels about us, and our thoughts about ourselves, our worth, our value, and our abilities. How easy it is to believe thoughts like “this is just how I am”, “God is angry with me or disappointed with me”, “it’s too late for me to change”, “God could never use me”, “I am not enough or I am too much”.
We can challenge these thoughts head on, by identifying them, recognizing them and countering them. We evaluate what emotions these thoughts lead us to, how they make us feel. If the result of the thought is discouragement, depression, anxiety, wanting to give in and give up, then we can assume that the thought is not of the Lord, and that it is not true. If you are battling these thoughts, you don’t need to condemn yourself because you have believed them, or beat yourself up because you accepted them without questioning them previously, but you can counter them now.
• We can search the Scriptures to see how much God loves us, the worth He placed on saving us, and the hope that He offers us that we can indeed leave the old behind and grow into maturity.
• We can meditate on these Scriptures, asking the Holy Spirit to show us how we are loved, how our strength and courage comes from the Lord, is given by Him for us to access.
• And,when the thoughts return,we can call them lies, counter them with the truth of Scripture, and refuse to dwell on them or believe them.
• We can also watch out for where some of the thoughts might be originating. Sometimes the negative voices around us are so critical, so loud, so repetitive that we adopt their messages in our own thoughts, but really they are external messages, that we have internalized. Once we recognize that the message is external, and is not true, about us, about God and how He feels about us, we can counter it even more effectively, and in some cases limit its access to us.
• We can replace those messages with trusted, positive voices of truth. Whether that is spending more time with encouraging and uplifting people in our lives, or listening to or reading messages based in the truth of the Word given to bless and encourage us, building us up in our faith rather than tearing us down, we can seek out sources that help us counter the lies with truth.
Is worry the well-worn path you want to turn from? Does anxiety crowd out joy and peace for you? How easy and natural it is to let fear and worry settle in. We know what has gone wrong in the past. We can imagine what can go wrong in the future. It can be intense, gripping our minds and our emotions. And we are not alone. There are things that trouble our minds and our hearts, there are real and potential dangers ahead. We are not asked to pretend, or live in a false sense of reality. The instruction to the Philippians applies to us here as well. When those worries and concerns arrive in our thoughts, instead of marinating in them, we take them to the Lord. The Message says: “Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns.” The Living New Testament translation says: Don’t worry about anything, instead pray about everything: tell God your needs and don’t forget to thank Him for His answers. If you do this you will experience God’s peace, which is far more wonderful than the human mind can understand. His peace will keep your hearts quiet and at rest as you trust in Christ Jesus.
The strategy here is to acknowledge when the worry or concern comes up in our thoughts, and to use that as a reminder to pray, to take the issue to God. This isn’t telling us to feel guilty when worry comes, but rather not to soak in it, but to take that worry to God in prayer. We not only pray for the issue of concern but we pray and ask God to give us His peace in the midst of the situation. This is easier said than done. It also doesn’t come naturally. It also requires intentionality. Spending time meditating, and marinating mentally, on God’s faithfulness, God’s goodness, can help.
Relational conflicts
The conflicts in our lives are not limited to internal experiences. Our relationships, even the most important and dear to us, are at risk of conflict. When individuals are in distress, it very easily leads to relationships in distress.
In Romans 12:18, we are encouraged to live in peace with others, as much as it is our power to do so. Sometimes we don’t have the control, sometimes it is not in our power to resolve a conflict peacefully, but there are some practical things we can do, to help increase the odds, and to give us the confidence that we have done what we can.
Often one of the most valuable practices we can engage in is to prioritize the relationship over the issue. Sometimes the issue is life and death, putting other key relationships in peril, or in some other way is so important that it rises above the relationship, but frequently, if we really consider the issue involved in a conflict, we realize that we would rather keep the relationship than win the issue. Since we cannot always have the win and the relationship, we may need to prioritize, to make a conscious choice. I love win-win situations, where I can find a resolution where everyone wins. But sometimes the real win is in the forfeit, in letting something go to hold on to the more valuable. We can get in a winning – need to be right – want it our way mindset.
Sometimes when mediating a family dispute I will ask the parties separately, if they win the issue, but lose the relationship, will they be satisfied with that result. It’s an important thing to consider, as it brings perspective. It is easy to let little things get big fast.
When we separate the issue from the individual, and decide that a relationship is more than important than the issue we can return to the practices from Philippians 4 again, taking the time to list the things that are good about the person, that we appreciate and value, intentionally reminding ourselves of their value in our lives. We break the mental cycle of thinking about the problem, and turn towards the person. And as we do, we ask the Lord for His peace and we that He will guard our hearts and minds from returning to the old pattern.
And then there is unity without uniformity. We can be in relationship, even close relationship, without agreement. Even on important issues. We do not have to let significant differences and disagreements lead to conflict. We can give each other permission to come to different conclusions without the continual need for us to try to change their mind or convince them of our side. We can choose to respect differences without succumbing to the temptation to demean them. We can learn from each other through respectful dialogue or make a conscious decision not to bring up topics and issues that will tempt us to elevate hot-button or sensitive subjects. This isn’t easy to do, it’s a discipline, because most of us are passionate about our positions and we want to convert or persuade our loved ones to our side of an issue. And there may be a time and place for that, but we have to provide the space and grace, the honor and respect, for individuals to come to different conclusions. This may be a particularly useful strategy during the upcoming election cycle, but it is not limited to political issues.
When we are willing to recognize that all kinds of issues are frequently complex and nuanced, and that we each bring our background and our experiences with us as we form our positions, we can grow to respect that other individuals may not agree with us, and that doesn’t make them all wrong and us all right, it doesn’t mean they are ignorant, or stupid or stand as evidence of our superior intellect or good judgement. When we release the requirement for uniformity within our relationships we find a new strength, a richness in the diversity, and often the tensions that lead to conflict are lessened.
In choosing to take the time to think on things that are of good report, fixing our thoughts on what is true and good, on the good in others, we are making a choice not to dwell on the negative things, on the things we disapprove of in the lives of our loved ones. It’s not that we are not aware or are in denial, but we are not allowing those things to dominate our thoughts about the people we care about. In fact we can release our right to approval, and disapproval to help restore our relationships.
We form our approval, and our disapproval around what makes us comfortable, what matches our taste, what we are accustomed to or would like to become accustomed to. And then we impose that on other people. We want them to dress in a certain way, behave in a certain way, fit into our expectations in a certain way, so that we are not uncomfortable. It becomes a way to control others to relieve our own distress. We are not forced to change how we interact with world around us, to question our views or expectations, if other people behave in a way that meets our approval. When people challenge the norms, or what we wish were the norms, psychologically we can feel like it is challenging how we fit in the world around us, challenging our very interpretation of life. Imposing our disapproval on the behaviors of others, is our way of expressing our discomfort at the pace of change and growth around us. Sometimes we disapprove because people seem stuck in the old ways and are not embracing societal changes, sometimes we disapprove because we are the ones not ready to change.
Sometimes we attach a moral value to a taste or cultural difference. We disapprove and say that it is wrong, when in reality it is unfamiliar or different. In the church we can attach sin to these issues as well. I went to a Baptist college where women were required to wear skirts or dresses below their knees to church, chapel and class. It was a sin to wear pants, a sign of rebellion. The disapproval that leadership felt over societal changes in women’s clothing over the previous decades, was imposed on all students in attendance. I worked with another ministry organization that was constantly updating the views of what style of dress was appropriate for God fearing Christian women in leadership. The disapproval of a few was used to control the actions of others. Imposing our views of approval on others is demeaning, it is patronizing, it says loudly and clearly that we don’t trust their judgement or ability to form their ideas on what is appropriate. It says we don’t trust them to listen to the Holy Spirit or to read the Word and learn healthy and appropriate boundaries for behavior. And frequently it backfires, causing people to truly rebel and chose even more extreme expressions of independence from our influence.
To build healthy respectful relationships, we can let go of the power of our approval over others. We can intentionally choose to follow the instruction of Philippians 4, dwelling on the fine, good things in others, turning our thoughts away from those behaviors we don’t like, spending time looking for and acknowledging the good. It is not us compromising our own values, morals or beliefs to acknowledge that we are not responsible or accountable for the choices and decisions of others. We can trust other people to make choices in their lives without thrusting our own discomfort or distress on them. I’m not suggesting that we throw out all laws and rules or even dress codes or social behavioral norms, but I am offering as a strategy in personal relationships, especially those damaged by conflict, to try to let go of the expectation that our approval or disapproval of their behavior, and their willingness to conform to it, is a litmus test for our love and support. When people we love make choices and decisions that we not only disapprove of, but that we see are hurting them, we can pray for them, trusting the Holy Spirit to do a work, acknowledging the strength of our disapproval is not match for God’s love for our loved ones. Deciding not to hoist our approval or disapproval on others probably won’t change their behavior and may not change our comfort level regarding it, but it is an acknowledge that their decisions and actions are probably not about us at all, and can help us have compassion for them, and if they are behaviors meant to make us uncomfortable, to stick it to us or punish us in some way, then our disapproval wasn’t really helping the situation at all.
None of these strategies are very easy to practice, they all require change, and when we are in distress, when we are discouraged, overwhelmed or in conflict it can feel like the hardest time to make a change. We are already feeling drained and weak and finding the momentum to change from pathways and patterns that we are used to and that come instinctively can feel impossible. I think that’s the beauty of the community of faith. Together, here, we practice Meditation, we practice inviting the Lord in, quietly listening, waiting on Him. What at first feels awkward and uncomfortable slowly becomes comfortable, even natural. And in our practices we can encourage each other, support each other. We are not in this alone.
It’s okay to ask for help. If in the process of re-writing our brain’s manual we discover trauma we need help with, it’s okay to seek that help, to get that help. If we need help in restoring our relationships, we can get that help, and that’s not a failure. Whether it’s a counselor, therapist, mediator, prayer partner, or other source of help, it’s okay. This isn’t a pick up yourself up by your boot straps and figure it out process. This is a community, growing in love, teaching one another about the peace of God and together growing in our relationship with the God of peace. This is us sharing the inexhaustible riches and generosity of Christ with each other.
May the Lord Bless You and Keep You, May the Lord’s face radiate with joy because of you.
May He be gracious to you, Show you His favor and give you His peace.
“UNSTUCK !” Ezekiel 33:10-11 Chuck Smith Jr. May 9, 2010
Do you feel like you are on an inevitable path to destruction ? In this study we learn through the example of Biblical narratives that we do have a choice and that we can get “unstuck” from habitually destructive practices. Chuck teaches the importance of practicing silent prayer and thus learning to respond vs. react in critical life moments and decisions.